I usually begin my blog with an update on life, BUT...there is none. Same old, same old. Nothing particularly new in life, just working and going to school. Rinse and repeat. I am shampoo, it seems. Or the usage of it.

Anyway, so now I'm here, with the desire to meet people, and, if possible, to find someone to date. This brings me to my next point. Lately, I've had several friends start calling me a "hopeless romantic", because I view dating as such a "non-casual" thing. I'll readily admit that perhaps, compared to the modern world, my views on dating are a bit "old fashioned", but heck, that's not a bad thing in my point of view. (hence the reason that I prefer it that way)
I guess in my mind I keep imagining this perfect dating thing to happen, and it working out great. No awkwardness, just flowing smoothly, and very few bumps along the road. I also keep trying to picture this perfect girl, not perfect as in flawless, but more perfect for each other. Yeah, I know it sounds cheesy, but when you think about it, doesn't everyone prefer it that way? (so it's only cheesy because I put it into words?)
Here's the next problem, and I'll preamble this with an apology to her if she happens to read this post. I won't use her name, but she probably will guess that it's her that I'm talking about. I hope she doesn't mind. My problem right now is that I keep comparing girls I meet and would consider asking on a date to another girl I used to date. We broke up on good terms so far as I know from my side. She had her reasons, which were justifiable for ending it. I also respect her decision and will leave her to it and not press the matter again unless she chose to. I have no ill feelings towards her whatsoever. Thing is, she was probably one of the most amazing people I have met. I thought we got along well, and, in my "hopeless romantic" sort of way, I thought things were fitting pretty perfectly.
Things are obviously over now, but now my problem is that I feel that if I meet a girl that I would consider taking on a date (or whatever), in my mind, it's like that bar has been raised to my ex's status, and I feel I would be settling if I dated them (not in a judging sort of way, more of the thinking of how well we would get along, etc). This has been troubling my mind for some time now, and I've been trying to figure myself out and what to do. (No, I'm not writing this blog to try and get something out of her, or whatever this is merely more of my feelings on my dating life) I have some good friends that I've talked to about it, and they all have shared great advice to me. But one of the best pieces of advice came from my friend/co-worker. When we talked about it a couple weeks ago, she said something that really made sense, and comforted me a lot.
Her words were along the lines of this; "It wouldn't make sense or be fair for God to have you meet this amazing person who you really connected with, only to have it not work out, and in the end you'd just have to settle on someone not as great for eternity. Rather, if would make more sense that when you do find 'the one', they will either be just as great, if not better than before." I thought that was really great.
So yes, still on the journey to find the right one. Don't get me wrong, I'm not in a terrible rush or hurry to find one, I hope I'm not coming across that way. Sure, a relationship and marriage would be great, and I feel that I'm ready in my life for that to happen if it happens, but if I have to wait, so be it.
If God prepares people to be taught by certain missionaries, then I believe that He definitely has a "perfect" person in mind to be your eternal partner. As you said, perfection is not flawlessness but rather a recognition of something eternally special in another.
ReplyDeleteThis is my first time reading your blog. I enjoy your writing style. Most of the time blogs are just cries for attention but there is a refreshing honesty and natural fluidity to your blog. Good job man.
I think it's not so much a place as it is a time of life (coming from a married person). You're home from your mission--the thing you looked forward to your whole life--and now the next thing to do is to get married. I figure that she's out there, looking forward to you. Finding that right person is challenging, but worth it (obviously). I once broke up with a guy who I was pretty sure was "the one" and it was devastating. How could I find anyone like him? Someone that I "fit" with so well? I was stunned at how much better my Andrew was for me than any other person I had ever met. I never thought we would be so good for each. The moral of this story is to be open to people you don't expect, to value them for their own worth (and try not to compare), and in general, not be looking for her, but letting you stumble onto her. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteI totally agree with both Dan and your coworker. I ALSO totally agree with you - your ex was amazing and I thought you were perfect together!
ReplyDeleteIn my experience, the one guy I actually fell totally in love with also totally broke my heart. But it turned out that dating him helped me figure out exactly what I was looking for. Then when I found Jared, I could recognize that he had those same qualities. Good luck with it!
Dating's a game you have to PLAY to win.
Haha Wendy, I never said which ex, but you totally got me. I'm pretty sure everyone knew who I was talking about.
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